Rough few days

It’s been a difficult one to write, this one.

The emotional journey I’ve been on recently I’ve hit a bump in the road, although it feels more like a tree branch through the windscreen. A classic case of making mountains out of molehills.

It’s said that a common autistic trait is the inability to judge what is socially appropriate behaviour. In my case I’m very aware of my own lack of ability. Thus the defense mechanism is to inhibit myself. Constantly.

For all the good stuff I’ve been doing recently, the feeling of failure has been coming from several directions, the worst of which has been failing to build close relationships which make me feel good about myself. Thoughts of hopelessness and despair have really done a number on me these last few days.

Mercifully I feel a lot better today.

As it is World Autism Awareness Week, I’ve been reminded that there are plenty of us out there, all with our own struggles. I’ve really begun to dislike my autism at times and I’ve neglected how important it is to accept myself for what I am. I hope now to be there for others to give proper support for anyone who’s struggling. And spend less time obsessing in my own head.

Which brings me to World Autism Awareness Week.

There’s been a fair bit written “Awareness”. I support awareness when it comes to education and understanding but, rather than offering acceptance and support, some view Autism as something to be eradicated. Despite my own issues around my Autism I can’t help but feel repelled by the idea that we should be “cured”.

So I recommend boycotting Autism Speaks and their #Lightitupblue campaign.

Support these guys instead

#Redinstead #Lightitupgold #Paleittopurple #Toneitdowntaupe

#ActuallyAutistic #AutismAcceptance #NothingAboutUsWithoutUs

Thank you for Reading


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